disconnected human

I feel so disconnected. It's like I'm the odd in between, the nuanced gray area, the weird coincidence, the oddly unique but useless thing. I don't belong anywhere and it's awfully lonely. There are days I feel numb, there are days I feel ridiculously sad, days when I'm so lonely. All I do is cope, cope, cope and I'm getting tired of coping. This is pain.