25th

25th february I have never felt so much fear before in my life. Recently I have lost my sister. I did not think there is grief that could be worse… it’s like some fucked up sur or arthouse. Suddenly you fall into darkness. And then like a lightning you are bashed onto the ground. Your limb gets teared off…and you are falling into darkness again. That lasts forever. Yesterday I realized that worse exists. It’s like hundreds of sisters die every second. And to make it worse you feel guilt that you cannot stop that immediately right here and now. And you understand even if you throw your body on the tank it feels like you are cheating, looking for a fast way out…like it changes nothing, you...View all