42 years of life has been amazing. I've had ups and I've had downs but all around I'm thankful for life. I also have been in a lot of pain these past years due to my back so I marked a line for every sharp pain that i feel. Each line has meaning behind them because one could mean no sleep that day or one could mean that I had to lay on the floor for hours because I could not move. I have also the words "drug often "on this work because with out the help of weed I would not get any relief or sleep because i can not take pain meds. So i have to smoke weed all the time just to make it through the day due to my pain. But no more talk of pain because it's my birthday and i'll cry if i want to......