There are times that to be honest all I wanted was just to let go, they say that time will heal all the wounds but I guess in my situation it just left the scars all over me, I just wanted to be a better person to help others and not drown them with me... Every new day that goes by I just feel like I'm not worth it, that I don't deserve anything and all that is happening to me all the failure is deserved and this is just my punishment for my actions, I was never perfect and I just feel that I'm messed up in ways that I don't imagine, at this point, I'm afraid of myself and what some people say might be true. I'm afraid of trying to reach for help and discover that everything I think might be...