i know the end (prelude)

This piece marks a halfway point for my 23rd year. My most self-destructive year. My most transformative year. A year filled with love yet so much self-loathing. "I know the end" is exactly that; a realization. A visualization of my [redacted] note. I've found it hard to get up every morning... to find the strength needed to keep going. I think it's hard for me to verbalize what I feel most of the time to people that I love because I find myself being stuck being their hero. So much so that I've lost a lot of myself. "I'm hurt... I'm hurting. I don't want to be here anymore." Thoughts that have plagued me throughout every single breath taken. I don't know if I'm going to be okay but I know t...View all