05.08 | the heartcode

5/8/2022 1095 days 156 weeks 36 months 3 years who’s counting anymore? everyday for 3 years i wake up and know two things: i’m closer to dying and you’re already dead. it’s been 3 years since i’ve consciously felt alive. like really living a life: “a-live.” it’s been three years since the man who brought me into this world left by his own decision and i barely believe i've aged a day since. just inched closer to dying. that’s grief: a dusty veil, a pestering cloud, a lost will, a broken clock. time slows down when you’re grieving. but it moves too fast when you’re living. some moments, smiles, long kisses, hugs, glasses of wine — make me wish i could stop time. stop time. a...View all