I'm scared, at this point is clear that I don't know or trust myself, I'm still finding all my emotions and trying to make peace with them but so far had already given up twice, and had hurt so many people through a process that should be mine and that's not fair for anyone, I'm tired of hurting people when I'm the only one messed up... This shouldn't be happening not to me, not to the ones around me, the journey has just started and I'm honestly afraid of my future, afraid to be no one or not being able to accomplish what I most want to and become a failure doing something that I don't appreciate making another weight on my shoulders that could possibly make me give up and leave everything ...